Monday, September 23, 2013

My walk with Jesus - 1

Few years back when I was given a tight slap on my face by the reality of the people I was associated with. I was deeply hurt to the point that went numb in all levels. It is a feeling that is worse to experience.
All that you have believed and lived so far, go meaningless moment. So grave that I felt that I can do anything. Anything wild. I wanted to fly an aircraft and went around checked few flying clubs for membership details and fee information. Wanted to sky dive. I wanted to do something that people are generally scared of coz I felt it wouldn't matter anymore. I had enough of this life. I have become so dead inside. BTW, I couldn't do any of it because of the same association has let me into debts and penniless at that point. And all those dangerous sports cost good money. Then I took the most wildest event. The most adventurous trip. The incredible step. Yes, I heeded to the call of Christ.

I remember that gloomy afternoon of April with severe thunder storm. I was stuck at a small town airport with my flight cancelled to New York city (which means I will miss my connecting flight from there). I was standing in customer service line to check for other Airlines for I really wanted to be at home that night. Smiling outside and hurting inside, suddenly my eyes welled with tears and I asked "How LORD?  How did I let myself into this? How can I come out of this?"

Then I heard a still voice inside my heart "PLEASE, Endure it for me. Please,..Please,.. Hang in there for me". I was stunned for a sec. What just happened. What did I hear? Is it Jesus? Is he really hearing to my wails? Didn't I do these mistakes? Am I not responsible for this situation of mine? Didn't I ignore the warning signs? Then, why he talks as if he made those mistakes?

As the Bible says in Romans 8:1 There is then no condemnation to them that are in Christ Jesus.

Lord Jesus Christ never condemns people. In fact he calls out those who are burdened saying "For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." Matthew 11:30

He surely made it easy for me. Every time I stumbled to take the next step, he was/is there by me, holding me, carrying me. Helping me like a mother tending a sick child. When the world mocked, joked, commented about my ignorance in dealing with those people, he was respecting and recognizing my wear and tears of my inside. Didn't the bible say when world sees the face, he sees our heart.
1 Samuel 16:7
But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”

He worked his way into me. He fulfilled my first desire of my heart by giving me strength to read the Bible. Then he fulfilled/fulfilling my desire for spiritually strong and bold people in life. When these two happened, my heart started to slowly gain life. My brain which went stiff as a paper started to work. He is the LORD that bring beauty out of ashes. Who is like HIM!
Isaiah 61:3 to bestow on them a crown of beauty  instead of ashes

What I am Today is because of the pure grace and mercy of Christ.(Psalm 23). He made all these things to work together for me. (Roman 8:28)

Dear Friend, If you are in a situation or a circumstances that is leaving you lifeless. I encourage you to focus towards the living GOD than the lifeless circumstances around you. Didn't he say in John 7:38 that he is the Living water.  Come who thirst for the water, drink from him. Let the living water gush out of you. There cannot be anything adventurous than the walk with HIM. There is nothing greater than HIS plans for us. There cannot be anything amusing than HIS miracles. Heed and Be Healed ! Amen!

Isaiah 35:6
Then will the lame leap like a deer, and the mute tongue shout for joy. Water will gush forth in the wilderness and streams in the desert.


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