Thursday, May 9, 2019


Dear Sisters and Brothers in Christ,
My first post for the year is not about the promise of the year or for the month, rather it is about my heart’s despair.

I have the promises of Esther, Joseph, Ruth, and David… Yet I wallow.
I am redeemed, restored and rejuvenated. 
But my family…Issues of the family impact my peace.

Have you been there? Have you felt that? I read the promises, but the waiting is tiring me. I see deliverance in one area and see somethings happen in another area or totally a new trial pops up…I see myself in a spiritual roller coaster of high and low. I am afraid to open to some Christians for prayers,…afraid of being judged,…afraid of inability to articulate my difficulties,…
I have trouble counseling my own family members stuck in Rationalism. How to inculcate the spirit of GOD and Knowledge into them. Especially when they point out the flaws of many Christians who claim are righteous. I have no case there.
I point them to see Christ and Cross. They can't understand it. So many questions around resurrection, forgiveness and so on.

Well, Salvation is not my business. I can walk away saying that. But When it comes to family the trials of them impact you. So I went into PRAYERS! PRAYERS! PRAYERS! I have prayed. Prayed like Jonah, Prayed like Naomi, Prayed like Hagar, Prayed like Josephat, Prayed like David….
I clad myself into different Biblical character for that moment and I have banged the doors of heaven. Every being of the heaven knows my shout…knows my heart…
Jesus knows me thru and thru.

I am not perfect. HE knows and I know it. Yet, I have a desire. A desire for the salvation of the entire family. Like that desire of the lady at the well. In the world’s eye, she is not perfect. Yet she has a search for GOD.

Dear Jesus,
let your everlasting spring of water gush thru me…
anoint me, baptize me, cleanse me,...
let a new spirit of understanding fall on me…
Let me rise up like an eagle…Let me run not faint…Let me wait confidently in the land of living not of the dead.

Oh! My dear FATHER, please listen to the cry of my sisters and brothers. Deliver to us! Deliver us into you. Let us, our children and children’s children stand as a testimony for you.
Holy Spirit comfort us, lead us and convict us with your soft voice.
Thanks for listening to this prayer for us, for our family and for our ministry.
In Jesus’s mighty name. Amen!



Thursday, December 20, 2018

Infamous Women in Christ Birth

In the genealogy of Jesus, five women are mentioned in Matthew 1. We usually discuss only about Mary. But let us take a look at the other four women:

1. Tamar: Matt 1: 3  Judah the father of Perez and Zerah, whose mother was Tamar. She is the daughter in law of Judah but bore a son through Judah. Widows in those days are not like today - she can’t marry anyone. She kept herself pure - did not defile herself. Judah himself testified about Tamar saying “She is more righteous than I am”. You can read more about her story in Genesis 38.

2. Rahab:  Matt 1:5 Salmon the father of Boaz, whose mother was Rahab. She was a prostitute from Jericho who saved the spies. You can read more about her story in Joshua 2. She gave up her profession, she was still a foreigner, but she humbled herself and learnt the laws of the Israelites. The scarlet cord that she tied saved her, her family and made her a part of Jesus’ birth. That scarlet cord (the blood of Jesus) is still available for you and me.

3. Ruth: Matt 1:5 Boaz the father of Obed, whose mother was Ruth. She wasa widow, a Moabite woman. Moabites are descendants of Lot – they were a curse. You can read about that in Deut 23. She gleaned in the field of Boaz. Gleaning was done by the lowliest of the lowly. She did that but God exalted her.

4. Uriah’s wife (Bathsheba): Matt 1:6 David was the father of Solomon, whose mother had been Uriah’s wife. Even her name is not mentioned in Matthew. She lost her husband, lost her first child through David, still she pressed in. You can find her story in 2 Samuel 11 and 12.

All of the four women were imperfect – but they all had a part in bringing the Messiah to the world. They did not let their past define their future. When the enemy shows your past, show him his future which is a bottomless pit.

The only one who can prevent you from your calling is you. All these women had so many setbacks. But still they were used by God. Their job was not perfect. Their family background was not perfect. The world despised them. Nevertheless these women had a part in the Savior's birth. 

You may not have a job let alone a perfect one. You may be despised and rejected by others. But you are cherished by your father in heaven. You are his beloved daughter. You are the daughter of the king. You are a holy nation, a royal priesthood. Your identity in Christ, is your anchor.

Jesus Christ became a curse for you, to set you free from all curses. He became poor for you, to make you rich in every way. His love for you is more than you can fathom. His plans are to prosper you. His plans for you are much higher than your plans for yourself.

When we humble ourselves, God will use us to birth many children into his kingdom.

Thursday, September 20, 2018

Why the Marriage? – Part 3

LORD works in mysterious ways to restore & redeem Mankind. HE is the only one who can make all things new1* and beautiful2*. HE assures that promise in every possible way through out the holy bible.

Enemy works openly and it is evident to the saints and people of GOD. When the Adam and Eve ate forbidden fruit their eyes were opened to the world in the Garden of Eden, little did they notice that their spiritual eyes were closed. They no longer understood the language of the animals or the nature or the angels. They were crowded with doubts/questions/worries & so called knowledge of the world.
When you are in Christ, the LORD with the help of the Holy spirit opens up the door to understand the happenings & secrets of the spiritual realm and once you can understand the plans of the enemy it is easy to fight and win. At least, when you win you can be sure that the victory is not because of you but because of the Everlasting Emmanuel and the LORD of the host who is holding your right hand3* and has promised not to forsake you4*.

When the enemy attacks the holy institution of Marriage. Struggle and Fight is real. There are so many sins and temptations against this holy institution.
Enemy sends his adversaries. Only the strong ones sustain. Especially in ones in Christ.

What he does to the marriages?

1.    Too much of anything  
In the name of love, being a control freak, being possessive doesn't help a marriage.  That kind of spirit is from the enemy. Know that Love is unconditional.

1 Corinthians 13:4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

2.    Nosy….
Trust and Faith are the building blocks of your relationship. The moment you start doubting there is no end to it. When you practice putting your complete faith in GOD and HIS promises. You are practicing a trustworthy and loving relationship discipline which will get extended to your spouse, parents and your dearest friend.

Forcing your spouse to do things your way. LORD has bestowed each individual with unique character, talent and outlook. As long as the foundation is built in the value of Christ, the individual can operate in any Christian faith-based institution smoothly. You will find how the LORD beautifully plug the individual in their role.

And then the enemy thinks thru it and set up a trap in the name of "Temptation" my heart sinks as I type this...How many marriages has fallen into this trap...
Dear GOD,...Dear Jesus...How many fights and stikes....Lets discuss that openly and casually in our next post. (Yes, "OUR" post....We are in this together my sisters and brothers)

1 - 2 Corinthians 5:17
2 - Isaiah 61:3
3 - Isaiah 41:13
4 - Hebrews 13:5
5 - James 1:19-20

Wednesday, August 29, 2018

Is the Bride Ready?

2 Timothy 2:20-21 But in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay, some for honor and some for dishonor. Therefore if anyone cleanses himself from the latter, he will be a vessel for honor, sanctified and useful for the Master, prepared for every good work.

The phrase 'cleanses himself' got my attention. We are saved by His grace (Eph 2:8) and live, move and stand on that same amazing grace alone. It is His Holy Spirit that does the conviction and cleansing. Then why does Paul say 'cleanse himself'? It means you and I must do the yielding, we must do the surrender as the Spirit does the work in us. 

Rev 19:7
For the wedding of the Lamb has come, and his bride has made herself ready.

We are his bride. Out of the rib of first Adam in the garden came Eve. But out of the rib of second Adam, Jesus Christ on mount Calvary came the bride of Christ (John 19:34).

None of us can forget our wedding day – next to the day we accepted Jesus as our savior, the second important day in a girl’s life is her wedding day. We do so much preparation – shopping, make up etc. All such preparation is for a marriage that will last maybe for 20, 30, 40 or 50 years in this earth. But we are talking about an eternal marriage that is going to last for eternity – how much more we must prepare ourselves. We read that the bride has made herself ready. No one else is going to make you ready. It is your responsibility. Are you like the five wise virgins ready to meet the King (Matt 25:10)?

Yield to the work of the Holy Spirit. Don’t be stubborn. Everyday crucify the flesh. Every day seek to please him more. To be transformed into His image (2 Cor 2:18) is our goal.

Our life is a mist/vapor according to James 4:13. We sometimes live this life as though we have all the time in front of us. Today is the day to serve the Lord. Don’t postpone saying I am just in my 20s, 30s etc. Let us come out of our spiritual complacency, our lethargy, our comfort zone and make this life of mist count.

Well done my good and faithful servant (Matt 25:21) – that is the biggest title anyone can have. He is not saying successful servant. He just wants you to be faithful with the talents he has entrusted to you. Don’t hide them like that wicked servant.

Is the bride ready to meet her bridegroom?

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Why the Wedding - Part 2

1.     Yoke: Read 2 Corinthians 6 14-18. It warns and talks about incompatibilities between believe and non-believer.  Yoked is the word used. Yes, Man and Woman are to be yoked together that they will walk in the right and one direction. Imagine each wanted to pursue different directions, not sure where their cart called family will progress or move towards. Today many marriages have no improvement in quality of life and financially, socially, personally or professionally is because of missing oneness. It’s very important to have praying husband or wife or both for the enemy’s lies to go null. A happy and thriving family that reveres GOD produces wonderful nation for GOD. See how, Marriage is the foundation. Many pastors are tempted, or their marriages have problems is only because it’s the foundation of this world. Living together is not a marriage. Publicly under the eyes of the LORD vowing to support sickness and health is a real marriage. Having multiple partners is not marriage. If you can’t revere and love one person in life, you cannot believe in one GOD. Many thoughts and ideas stem from one single value or principle. Your outlook on marriage decides your mortal and eternal life.
2.     Today you might have failed in many areas of marriage, don’t worry. Our GOD can put everything together, didn’t HE send HIS only son Jesus for that one son Adam and all of his children.
3.     Just know that Marriage is very important and cannot be taken for granted. WORD of GOD can never go wrong.
4.     Spouse – If you do not love or respect your spouse for any reason, Know that you have drifted away from GOD’s plan. Giddy up and get back to the will of GOD and HIS plan.
5.     Broken lose or Stand Still - Either you have broken lose or you are waiting in GOD’s will for your spouse to come back way, know that prayer is the magnet that can bring you/him/her back. Coz we have a waiting/advocating/pleading merciful son of GOD in our life.
I just burst with tears now when I typed waiting. GOD of the world is waiting for you. (Read John chapter 4) I cant fathom that love coz I am so proud and arrogant to wait on someone who would repeatedly ignore me and so unstable in their love. And then I see the manifestation of LORD’s love in my life and others.
And that is the love the LORD asks of you and your partner in the marriage.
6.     Not yours, its His – This marriage is not yours. It’s a covenant between you and him, your spouse and him. It’s a contract, a deal written in HIS blood. Now think about it. This way to look at your marriage will change the dynamics of leading the marriage. You are HIS bride. When you know you are HIS bride, there is no place of any transgressions in the marriage. It becomes holy. You are sanctified and satisfied. This applies not just to women but also to men.
7.     How to – I read your mind. I hear u saying “Well, it all sounds nice to read Dii.” Do you know my struggle? Do you know about my spouse and extra baggage that has come with this marriage? I am unequally yoked or I am that unequal. How do I fix this now? I want the results now. I want to enjoy my youth. Its wasting away. How long?”
Remember something, there is no anything like perfect world or perfect relationships. Yet GOD promises perfect love for you. And out of that love you can be sure that this marriage of yours can be fixed. When is the last time someone told you that they got their six pack in a month’s time. Flesh that withers away needs time and work. Your marriage the will of GOD definitely needs time and work. Prayer is a work out, Word of GOD is the good food and developing this habit/discipline is what going to help you see a transformation you are looking forward to in your marriage.

*Disclaimer: Again, if your spouse is assaults you or hurts you/any of your family members physically. Please find shelter and pray for the situation.

Monday, July 16, 2018

Why the Wedding? - Part 1

Of all the things in the world, of all the places of sorrow, grief, pain and suffering…Why the wedding for the Son of GOD's first miracle? Have you wondered?

Why Jesus chose a wedding occasion to demonstrate HIS power bestowed upon him. Was he a party lover? Of all the miracles, changing water to wine!!! Was it the most important?

John 2:1-11
2 On the third day a wedding took place at Cana in Galilee. Jesus’ mother was there, and Jesus and his disciples had also been invited to the wedding. When the wine was gone, Jesus’ mother said to him, “They have no more wine.”
“Woman,[a] why do you involve me?” Jesus replied. “My hour has not yet come.”
His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.”
Nearby stood six stone water jars, the kind used by the Jews for ceremonial washing, each holding from twenty to thirty gallons.[b]
Jesus said to the servants, “Fill the jars with water”; so they filled them to the brim.
Then he told them, “Now draw some out and take it to the master of the banquet.”
They did so, and the master of the banquet tasted the water that had been turned into wine. He did not realize where it had come from, though the servants who had drawn the water knew. Then he called the bridegroom aside 10 and said, “Everyone brings out the choice wine first and then the cheaper wine after the guests have had too much to drink; but you have saved the best till now.”
11 What Jesus did here in Cana of Galilee was the first of the signs through which he revealed his glory; and his disciples believed in him."

I had pondered and dismissed the thought coz I cant just comprehend why would the Son of GOD would pick a not so significant place or an event.

After 15 yrs of my marriage and some what close walk with GOD, Holy spirt revealed that this dimension is not an insignificant event rather a mighty place of power and order. Let me go step by step.

Adam & Eve

GOD brought Adam and Eve together. They become the flesh of the flesh and blood of the blood which means they are married in the eyes of the LORD.
Satan, the fallen angel who had some wisdom of GOD decided to bring division in this relationship coz he know of all the relationships that will come into existence in this world, the relationship between a husband and wife is the most holy and the only relationship that will Mimic relationship with GOD. He conspired to mar it. He decided to take his first step towards it and by confusing Eve.

He convinced Eve that she is better than her husband Adam. He made her feel important. He made her the decision maker. He tries to empower her by false hope. 

He failed their marriage. How ? By bringing hatred, spewing venomous words, blames etc. etc.

Yes, Do you think Adam wouldn't have brought fruit eating incident with Eve during hard years of his toil? On those days, he would come home tired and he would have at least mumbled in frustration and blamed Eve for the downfall. Agree?

As for Eve, imagine the only human she knows is upset with her and as she suffers from Child birth (after 2000 yrs epidural will be found) Imagine her heart wrenched with pain of guilt and would one day blow up with disrespectful words of accusation like “What were you thinking? Where were your senses?”. (Sorry, if it sounds so much like your marriage. Don’t be upset. That’s Satan's whole idea from the beginning.)

There you go, Satan attained his first victory (temporary) by bringing Sorrow to GOD’s most precious creations.

GOD has to restore this marriage back in order. Turn almost empty vessels with Wine of great taste and flavor. Turn colorless and tasteless water to A drink of joy and merriment. HE wants the relationship to be restored for the Humans to model that relationship with HIM. 
Anybody who does not respect or love his/her *spouse would not be able to completely show the reverence and love to GOD. Dont you agree?

To Be Continued..........
*Disclaimer: We are not by any chance talking here about abusive spouses. We are talking about 2 normal human beings brought together in marriage and love